mountain prayer

right now i lay still
listening to a pain that still lives within
giving it a voice so it will mourn what it needs
permitting the rivers to cleanse the wounds
these wounds that are to me still so fresh
a woman scorned

and i pray...


i allow time to heal me
let the wind dry my tears away
the Ocean guide me to better shores
and take me home
where my heart is
where my love will clothes my soul
where a peace fills the spaces between things
where my anger gives way to forgiveness

alumbramiento

camino al borde de mi amanecer
de puntitas coqueteo
bailo la cuerda que me lleva
a mi propio alumbramiento
y la anticipación me viste
there is no reply
to anything that is un-said
there was a leap of faith
that was not tended...

YOU DIDN'T EVEN TRY
(but you promised)

but if they're made
to be broken
instead of my heart
given as token
i take it back
you ask why
honor you lack

YOU DIDN'T EVEN TRY
(but you promised)

no courage
no respect
no honor
no truth
no faith
no love
no MORE
una final/comienzo
un/a muerte/nacimiento
una lagrima/sonrisa
un odio/amor
un tu y yo

what you do if...

respect
its what you give to someone you love
if there is no respect, there is no love
its being able to walk in someone elses shoes
empathize
its taking the time to feel someone else
feel their hurt
to acknowledge another
to love
is to understand the persons humaness and
love anyway
to love is to celebrate someone
to bring out their best
and to work with their worst
to help them become a better person
while holding their hand
and letting them do the same
to be faithful
is to be honest all the time
to be in a relationship
is to commit yourself
to love, respect and be faithful
and to end one
you just need to do the opposite
of everything

rebuscando

llegas y todavia me reguindo de un hilito de esperanza
que se estira y se estira pero todavia no se rompe
es de goma?
rebusco en tu mirada una señal
en cada cosa de ti busco...algo que me diga
que sientes y como piensas ya que lo que sale de tu boca
no lo creo
ese hilito sigue ahi
con el tiempo mas estirado
es lo que me ata a ti
y estoy mas lejos
mas lejos
mas lejos
mas despegada
pero todavia busco en tus ojos
mi reflejo
y me cuestiono
por que no estoy ahi

bandera de inmunidad

cuando todas tus flechas
dirigidas hacia mi
apuñalando sin cesar
mi ser abatido
apuntan hacia la puerta
que no quiero abrir
mi resistencia
magnifica, heróica e incoherente
desplegada en mi pecho
como bandera de inmunidad
manteniendome en mi purgatorio personal
se levanta
una y otra ves.
postrando mis heridas
como medallas
mis lagrimas como agua bendita
limpian mi dolor.
cuantas uñas mas me arrancaré?

me siento bien pequeña
y me escondo tras mi resistencia.

necesito mi poder
para poder
abrir esa puerta
para no temerle al futuro
para con brazos abiertos
recibir
recibir
recibir

trust

I have the grandest love. He is m buddha, my son, who lights my heart up when he smiles.

Yet a part of me dies. A dream. And it's hard to let it go.

I am right now frozen, knowing I need to move on, yet waiting for a cue or a degree of hurt of no return, in order to move.

I know I have love inside and I am good. I need to forgive myself for being human and making mistakes.

I know the only constant is change. It's just that I want things to change MY WAY. But I need to trust the universe in that it will lead me to where I need to be.
love,
b

si no lo ves

es un abandono
la cancelación de una esperanza
el desmonte de un projecto de vida

hace tiempo que no estas aqui
esto es solo una formalidad
y ya no vale la pena
o si?
quiero gritarle al mundo entero esta injusticia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

no por mi, sino por una criatura tan hermosa, como es que no lo ves y solo piensas en ti ti ti ti ti ti ti ti ti y ti???

el brilla amor y si para ti eso no es algo fuera de este mundo y algo por lo cual luchar, entonces no eres digno de ello. yo veo ese amor maginifico que sale de el ,y quiero estar con eso todo el tiempo. quiero hacerlo todo por el. es mi dios.

my rock

once again can't be right for this
i carry you with me
you are my rock
the one i live for now
the one that shines for me when i am dim
the one i need to hold on to,
to see this thru
i will make the best for us
we won't look back
we'll carry on
you smile at me and let me know
no matter what
we have our love.
i let her out
she took control
you saw her..her sad angry face
sticking up for me
at least that's what she thinks she does...
but she actually hurts me more.

pacha mama calls

the luxury of tears
the fall of walls
the even-keeled self
in desperate cry
dives in looking
for the treasures
that lie within

its a time to heal
to cleanse
to shake it all out
in order to expand
become strong
dexotify
to purify
for i feel contamined
and i need answers
and pacha mama calls

crees que son compatibles?

somos 4.

el, yo y otros 2 que se odian.

chica guardada

esa chica quiere salir
esa chica quiere janguear
por las cunetas de san juan
fumadose media cajetilla
en una barra de pacotilla

tambien se toma unas medallas
a ver si con ellas es mas brava
o una corona con limonada
a ver si es reina de esa jornada

al club sus huesos se va a mover
y una rolita se va a meter
desencajando todos los mundos
exhalando todos los nudos

y libre...
se siente libre
pero de que sirve...
cuando no hay nada a que retornar...
ella sigue ahi
y yo no la alimento
pero ella me llama
me trae su brisa
esa chica..
guradada esta.
estoy creciendo

hole

my skin peels away like white glue
a thin layer
falling
leaving less of a me each time
look at me!
i am a woman
the fear is real
i want to be touched before the i cracks
the days, weeks go by
and i'm here alone
in a box you keep me
where no one can see
the last of my beauty
my flowing hair
and darkest eyes
you can see the sadness
in the shape of my mouth
i want someone
that can see me and think
"you are truly a beauty"
anybody!
feel fingers go down my arm
soft kisses down my spine
someone who explores
every nook and crack
before wanting just to be inside
in a hole

compassion

it's so easy to write when i'm low
when i feel i took another blow
give me a fucking happiness muse
i think this i could surely use

but here i am

each day more cynical
...and more naive

wanting the happy ending
but frozen still and bending
why don't i move myself
what passions are on a shelf

but here i am

each day older
...and knowing less

my eyes are glazed

i hang on compassion

OM MANI PADME HUNG
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don't hurry past

i enter the doorway
knowing the room i'm in
facing the gloom i'm in-
(i'm in) need of some love
of yours
(but you)
give me no hope
(sometimes)
we have this little game
(you see)
and it's just
gettting so lame
(i have)
more than a glass
(of that)
white wine i stole from you
and it pains me
that you don't feel it
like i do
it's just a game for you
until it's over
then you can't turn back
and wonder
where did we go bad
i can tell you now
i can't give up
but my aching heart
says we'll never last
don't hurry past
what we can be
so much to be
if only you could see
past...
my aching heart
i n t o m y l o vi n g s o u l

a limpiar

aterrizamos lentamente
veo los techos y las piscinas
la grama y el tope de los arboles
ya estamos aqui
pero por favor no pintes todo de rosita
te quiero
si, pero demosle un descando
a la brocha

exploremos las cosas como son
sin "tape", please!!
y reparamos lo que se pueda
y lo que no sirva lo botamos
a ver que sobra de el tornado que juntos soplamos
con nuestros egos y expectativas

a botar escombros y limpiar esta playita
a ver si nadamos en agua clarita otra vez.



unfeeling

i felt the unfeeling
mourning for what no longer
lives and plays inside me
that makes me smile inside
when you pass me by
i'm sorry
will it come back?
is it temporary?
i don't know
i still love
but that other feeling is gone
for now...